Captured: A very tired, but grateful girl. I’m a firm believer that what you think about, you bring about; along with energetically aligning oneself with the universe.
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Today, I have reached my 119th round of chemotherapy *almost 120😱* and I am abundantly delighted to share that my tumor markers are now in the high 60’s. Due to traveling, it’s been a little over a month since I have received my last chemo, and at that time they were at 100. The fact that they have continued to decrease despite not having chemo for a month has certainly given me so much hope and happiness. Clearly my body is responding well to my treatment and I am visualizing that they continue to drop, trusting the powers that be continue to have my back, and maintain my positive outlook and attitude.
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In May I will have a pain pump implanted, in an effort to target the pain with the dispersal of various medication. This will hopefully give me a much better quality of life, and I won’t have to take pain meds, as the side effects do a number on your body. Additionally, I will have my stent replacement the following day and I’ll be in the hospital for a few days. I’m in awe of the things CTCA has done since I have been here, and the unique ways they have treated my cancer.
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I’ll be down and out for the next few days due to 72 hours of chemo. But it makes it worth it when I hear good news like I did today! As always thanks for the love and support! 💙💙💙 #coloncancer #cancerlife #cancerwarrior
Some days exceed the limits of my medications. At the moment I’m trying to delete feelings and pain in an effort to balance life and everything that comes in between. On a daily basis I attempt to own my story, along with the struggles that comes with simply being human. Yet, nothing hurts more than expectations that are premeditated disappointment.
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Physically and emotionally I am scarred, but somehow I am able to smile today as if I wasn’t crying last night. Perhaps even deserving of an Oscar for acting like everything is fine, all while trying to remind myself that sadness is only temporary. I am learning that you can be fragile and strong at the same time. So, today I am choosing to be strong and put a smile on my face. 😊 #feelings #mondaymood #smile
