For as down on my luck as I have been in the last few years, I have lucked out as far as the kids that are a part of my world. Particularly with my little, lovely, clever and beautiful,Kambrell, my K-babe. If you would have told me seven years ago when I partnered up with my now hubby, that I would gain the best little partner in crime, I would have squealed with excitement.
When I was diagnosed with cancer, the notion of having children quickly went out of the window, particularly after having my hysterectomy. Recently the thought of adoption seems non-existent and out of the question for Steve and I. Who is going to allow a Stage IV cancer patient with a life long illness adopt a child? I know, I know — it seems like a pessimistic outlook but I must be realistic. The thing is, I’m not fretting because I have claimed someone for myself. Someone who has stood the test of time, who has been there for me through it all, who has laid next to me when I have been at my sickest and laughed with me at my very best.
When my life has lost it’s meaning, she saved me from myself. As long as I’ve got her and she’s got me and together we can be, well that’s swell. I’m so grateful for nights like tonight where I can take part of her world and attend things like her talent show where she was the superstar MC. It makes me realize that I do not need children to feel complete. I have a wonderful child that I am able to share in her universe and that makes me feel utterly complete.
K-babe, you know I love ya, you rocking’ robin.