Growing up in an all-British household, I was convinced during the first five years of my little life, that The Beatles were the British Government. This of course came before I realized that John Lennon had been shot to death in New York City, five years prior to my birth and that there was such thing as the Royal Family and the House of Parliament, amongst many other things. After all, I was growing up in America, but the initial stages of my childhood were brought upon by British traditions and anecdotes.
Generally speaking, it may have been the stories I was told from my Nan about how The Beatles hailed from the same region in which our family came from, or how she used to watch them at The Cavern Club before they took the world by storm with Beatlemania. Imaginably, I have always glorified them because my Granddad had a band called “Cheshire Cats” where he would play at The Cavern Club, in Liverpool, just before The Beatles would take the stage. Moreover, I have always had a special connection to their music and as I grow older I have the fondest of memories blaring the music with my Nan on the way to Las Vegas, or the time that my Nan, Mum, Auntie and I went to see Beatles Love Cirque Du Soleil and my Nan enlightened all of the songs and their some what political meaning they held at the time the songs were released. I have always associated The Beatles with my Nan and Granddad and that will be something I can carry with me for the rest of my life.
Yesterday, I believe that I had my most challenging chemo session to date. The Avastin once again reared it’s violent side effects on my weak body, despite taking the right measures and medications in an effort to avoid such symptoms. While I didn’t have issues specific to my heart, I did have an incredibly difficult time breathing and each breath was taken with a sense of trepidation, as I felt that with each breath, it may be my last one. Then began my old friend, the shakes. My body began to convulse and erratic shaking took place. As this was happening I was so doped up on medication that the only emotional response my body could retort was to cry in the arms of my lovely Nan. Silently, I began to talk to my Granddad who is up in heaven and asked him to keep an extra eye on me and instantly within that little whisper, Here Comes the Sun began to play in my mind as I drifted in and out of consciousness.; “…little darling, it’s been a long, cold lonely winter, it feels like years since it’s been here. Here comes the sun, here comes the sun and I say, it’s alright…”. The song continued to play, for only my ears to hear and I knew it was a sign from my Granddad that he is watching over me and that everything would be alright.
As the ingenious John Lennon once said, “…we all shine on, like the moon, and the stars, and the sun.” Thank you to my Nan for always being by my side through the fun times and the not-so fun times, you are my rock, my sunshine and to live in a world without you is unimaginable. And to my Granddad, you may not be “here”, but thank you for letting me know you are with me, standing by my side, from the other side. As for The Beatles, thank you for always providing me with a connection to my Nan and Granddad and for always being the chosen voice and sign during my times of trouble and hopelessness.
“Words are flowing out like endless rain into a paper cup, they slither wildly as they slip away across the universe. Pools of sorrow, waves of joy are drifting through my opened mind possessing and caressing me.” – The Beatles, Across The Universe
All Things Must Pass is one of my favorites by George. I grew up with The Beatles starting with when I was 8yrs old. They have been part of my life and continue to be. Been really part of my some of my “sanity” along the battle with my disease.
This is a lovely post and meaningful.
Thank you! Yes, they are brilliant indeed! Glad they’ve gotten you through some tough times, too! ❤️
Love you Britt xxx
Love you Dear Britt!
Oh my…love the pics, your nan is beautiful, brings back so many memories of hanging out at your nans house.
Britt what can I say !! He will always be watching over you !! You are someone very special !! You will always be my sunshine !! I love you with all my heart Nan xx loved the photo ‘s xxx